Cheryl Duckworth A Review of Paper Hearts by St. Vince Gilligan "I don't know what to believe. I just know I have to find out now." ~Fox Mulder "Paper Hearts" is one of those episodes that has haunted me since I first saw it. This is "The X-files" at its darkest, most tragic, most harrowing and most brilliantly executed. I personally find it just about flawless. I wonder if Vince Gilligan even knows the effect of everything he tapped into with this episode, calling to mind themes we all understand subconsciously and instinctively, like nightmares and loss and evil and innocence. The paper hearts cut from the girls' dresses and the use of a favorite childhood tale, Alice in Wonderland, were almost brutally effective to convey this. The fragile image was heartbreaking, espeically when you consider that it's really Mulder's heart he's refering to. He also demonstrates that he understands (to say the least) what makes a good X-file. For example, to call this episode "focused on character not plot" would be a gross understatement. And, once again, his monster of the week is not some alien or mutant, but a human monster who is all to real. Serial killers like John Lee Roche scare me more than any little green man simply because they exist. Gilligan again proves himself a master of sheer suspense. Not many scripts truly surprise me, even on this show, but I literally jumped when Mulder woke up handcuffed with Scully and Skinner calling to him through the door. He also knows how to use one of the shows hallmarks, irresolution, to perfect effect. Mulder never does find the little girl belonging the the last paper heart and the final scene makes it clear that this haunts him still. But I didn't feel cheated or as if the story was not resolved because the writer ran out of ideas. He knew exactly what he was doing and exactly how to walk that line between giving the viewer too much and too little. I was also impressed that he even dared to call the entire premise of the show into question in the first place. He does it giving us a perfectly plausible alternate explanation as to what might have happened to Samantha without dismantling any of the story already in place. If there is such a thing as a sacred Mulder episode, this would have to be one. I fell in love with this Mulder. He was vulnerable without whining; he was determined and passionate and tragic. His work made it clear why people called him Spooky; I always love hearing him profile. Like Scully said, he does good work. That's nice to know for sure, since most people he encounters don't think so. (If he'd just *listen* when she compliments him like that, he'd be a much happier man, as I've said before.) Also, while we often get Victim'sAdvocate!Scully*, I loved that we actually got Victims'Advocate!Mulder in this one, too. While in the midst of pain as deep and wrenching as any he's even felt, Gilligan's Mulder can still care about others. And he proves when he says, "It's somebody, though" upon confirming that the skeleton he'd found was not Samantha's or when we see his compassion for the father of one of Roche's victims, Mr. Sparks. We see this again when he tells Scully "That doesn't really matter now, does it?" when she asks if Roche's final heart belonged to his sister. And when an innocent girl was in danger because of him and he was determined to do something about it. I will also love him for choosing to save Katlyn (adorably played by the cutest little actress 1013 could possibly find) instead of pursuing his own quest. If everyone wrote Mulder like that, I'd never use the word "Punk." Every once in a while, I see a performance that makes me grateful to be alive. David Duchovny's performance in this episode is one of them. No matter how many times I watch it, he makes it new somehow. In every scene, he gave Mulder an aching vulnerability and desperation and anger that was unforgettable. His expressions digging both gravesites, trying to find the skeleton, were wonderful. And his scenes with Roche crackled with raw emotion. Duchovny used every weapon in his acting arsenal-- those eyes, his soft, throaty deep voice, the body language-- to full effect. I will never forget what I've come to call the Samantha Smile when Mulder finally gets it right (only not really) and pulls his sister out of Roche's car and into his arms. It was a huge moment in the context of the whole show and he sank into it. And (to quote Sister Autumn) in the "its the little things that count" department, I loved that in an episode which explored Mulder's insomnia (I wouldn't sleep either if I had dreams like that), I could *feel* Mulder's physical exhaustion, see it written all over his face. But despite that this was clearly Duchovny's episode, it would be a crime to ignore the performance Gillian Anderson gives. Anderson's performance and Gilligan's script give us an entire hour of Valkyrie!Scully, hovering about Mulder, fiercely protective. I loved how she literally shook with anger and hissed "Stop the mind games" when Roche taunted Mulder with "Most of all, I can't wait to see your face" (when Mulder is forced to admit that Samantha is dead). I loved, as I always do, that she defended him unflinchingly to Skinner. And I could feel her aching with Mulder's pain when, after she and Mulder left Roche, Scully moves right up to Mulder, inches away, and utters, "Are you okay?" Moments like that convince me personally that Gillian, at least, thinks Scully is in love with this man. (Anyone else catch that look of utter adoration she gives Spooky when he profiles his way to finding the hearts in the camper shell of Roche's old car?) And she proves again that she doesn't need words to communicate Scully's thoughts with The Look she gives Mulder after he asks if she believes Samantha was abducted by aliens. For me, such tight scripting and skillful characterization always result in, yes, shippiness. I loved the contrast in the Morgue scene of Anderson's cool head against Mulder's pinkish, wet eyes as he fights tears fingering what might be his sister's skeleton. Their tender little "butt-hug" (as I've heard it called) remains one of my favorite quiet moments between them. It was exquisitely played, with Anderson's tender, silky voice caressing an exhausted, wounded Mulder (I could of sworn he was going to do a face plant on that desk.) Her presence makes him able to laugh at his own pain, making him stronger. Again, Scully's deep admiration for Mulder come across when she says she knows they will find the last missing girl because she knows him. The unbreakable bond, and Scully's loyal faith, were breathtaking. No wonder Gilligan's the Patron Saint of Shippers. Mitch Pleggi and Tom Noonan both deserve a mention. Pleggi's Skinner was as tough and hard and compassionate in the end as he always is. And Tom Noonan's John Lee Roche remains one of my Most Hated Villains, a testament to his performance. He played this predator with a malicious childlike wonder that chilled me. Roche knew exactly what he was doing to Mulder; that was his goal and he utterly, remorselessly enjoyed it. I loved that he pretended to be a victim himself at times, as when he pouted "Are you going to hit me again?" to Mulder. Noonan was effectively cast, too. Not many of the show's other characters tower over the six foot one Duchovny. The direction and score also help me lose myself in this story. The lighting and the use of the little red dots not only reinforced the nightmarish fairytale of Gilligan's script but help me bounce back and forth between dream and reality. Mark Snow's music was consistent with this, which I also found helpful. I also loved direction of the teaser, as we move smoothly from Mulder's dream to his finding the grave site to the excavation the next morning without a shot wasted. You know you've got an instant classic when you've written too much and have only covered half of what you loved about an episode. This one gets all ten tic tacs out of ten, no question, with Duchovny's choice of flavor for his finest performance. Favorite Mulderism of the Night: "And you've got the wrong damn house, you stupid son of a bitch!" Supidest Line (there actually was one, and I laugh out loud everytime): "Call an ambulance" Um Mr Skinner, sir, Roche has just been shot from six inches away through the skull. I think he's pretty much a goner. SWILS Note: There was something about her purposeful stride in this one I loved. Mulder Drooling: WOW! It's impossible to choose, so I'll just list what I like. That (to quote the DDEB "radiant vulnerability". Those lean, muscled arms with that short-sleeved shirt. And...MULDERGLASSES! Hoo BOY! Cheryl *Thanks for this title, JP! Main